Rewired

Sometimes it's seems that i alienate the people in my life. just today when i was on my myspace, everything was so different. I lost friends, i gained some. My friends don't look the same, they look like their in this far off world here you ca'n't really travel to it. It's like seeing an old best friend from back in those days. And you see they've moved on. And when you look at them your hoping they'll still remember you even if they replace you with new friends and dont think about you at all. I'm one of those people who want to move on like my friends did, but still look over my shoulder. I've tried to forget all the good times and bad times i spend with my old friends, it's not impossible. What upsets me most is that they'll forget me. They'll move on. Like, your hoping to catch up with them, but they seem not to be there for you right now and then. Your hoping they'd answer txts, but you convince yourself that they are busy. All my friends grown up, and i'm still a little seedling. Like time had passed me by too fast, that i can't even count how many seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks i've wasted. just thinking of "What if" questionairs. It's like a mind game, that you cant quite understand.